Trust me, I'm still screaming.

And yet you still can't seem to hear. A continuous collection of smudged screens and illiterate ink.

My name is Bianca. I am 14 years old. I have no idea what I'm doing here.

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bathtubdreams:

Music Tag

You can tell a lot about someone by the type of music they listen to. Hit shuffle on your ipod/phone/itunes/media player and write down the first 20 songs. Then pass this on to 10 people.

One rule: no skipping

1. Jupiter - Earth, Wind and Fire
2. The Girl - City and Colour
3. Latin…

I will be doing this I promise. Thank you!

Him: why must you always go for the broken ones?

Her: to help lessen the effects of people like you, who do all the breaking.

—   greater than whole

I used to have oceans inside of me; crashing against shores of salvation, drowning out the deep-sea darkness before it reaches my surface.

They dried up.

—   this isn’t just a low tide.
asexy13yearold:

openyourthird-eye:

highonvodka:

themixedbagofspooky:

spoopy-len-in-a-dress:

riningear:

doryishness:

displaced-angel:

ryedragon:

inritum:

reblog and make a wish!this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

OH MY FUCKING GOD, IT’S BACK ON MY DASH.
THIS SHIT WORKS OKAY, I AM DEAD SERIOUS.
The last time I saw this on my dash, I didn’t think it would happen, so jokingly I wished I could go to a fun. concert.
AND GUESS WHAT, I WENT TO A FUCKING FUN. CONCERT.
THIS SHIT WORKS, TRY IT.

YOOOOOOO
I SAW THIS ON MY DASH THE OTHER DAY AND THOUGHT “ITS WORTH A TRY” SO I WISHED I COULD GET A 3DS
LITERALLY LIKE 4 DAYS LATER MY DAD SENT ME A PICTURE OF THE 3DS XL HE BOUGHT FOR ME WHILE I WAS AT SCHOOL
IM STILL FREAKING OUT ABOUT THIS

holy fuck, I didn’t expect this to work, I was like psh, whatever it’s just a quick reblog, but I wished my Dad would actually respond back to me AND HE FUCKING DID A FEW DAYS LATER, I GOT A FUCKING TEXT FROM MY DAD TODAY WHO HASN’T SPOKEN OR RESPONDED TO ME IN MONTHS HOLY FUCK WHAT IS THIS MAGIC IT WORKS. 

I WANTED TO SEE MY BOYFRIEND AND I DIDN’T THINK I’D GET DAYS OFF BUT THIS WEEKEND I’M HEADING UP THERE??? THIS IS CRAZY SHIT 

SO LIKE I JOKINGLY WISHED FOR MY OWN LEN KAGAMINE AND THEN LIKE A WEEK LATER I GOT A LEN NENDOROID??? H ELP

WTF OKAY SO THIS SHOT ACTUALLY WORKS BECAUSE WHEN I WISHED, I HAD WISHED MY CRUSH WOULD LIKE ME BACK AND GUESS WHAT? I HAVE A BOYFRIEND NOW. WHAT THE HELLLLL?????

ok I’ve said this before but IM DOING IT AGAIN THE FIRST TIME I SAW THIS, MY WISH DID COME TRUE SO I REBLOGED AGAIN AND SAID IT IN THE TAGS BUT THEN I WISHED FOR SMTH ELSE AND IT LITERALLY LITERALLY HAPPENED LIKE A COUPLE DAYS LATER WHAT THE HELL SO NOW IM WRITING THIS HERE FOR YOU BC I DONT BELIEVE IN THIS CRAP BUT STILL IT’S AN AWFULLY BIG COINCIDENCE

OKAY I SWEAR TO GOD THIS THING WORKS YOU HAVE TO PATIENT BC I WISHED THAT I COULD MOVE AWAY FROM MY SHITTY TOWN TO A WARM PLACE AND GUESS WHAT THIS JULY IM MOVING TO NORTH CAROLINA OKAY GUYS IM NOT MAKING THIS UP I AM SO CONFUSED ACTUALLY THIS IS GREAT BYE

this does work… no joke

asexy13yearold:

openyourthird-eye:

highonvodka:

themixedbagofspooky:

spoopy-len-in-a-dress:

riningear:

doryishness:

displaced-angel:

ryedragon:

inritum:

reblog and make a wish!


this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

OH MY FUCKING GOD, IT’S BACK ON MY DASH.

THIS SHIT WORKS OKAY, I AM DEAD SERIOUS.

The last time I saw this on my dash, I didn’t think it would happen, so jokingly I wished I could go to a fun. concert.

AND GUESS WHAT, I WENT TO A FUCKING FUN. CONCERT.

THIS SHIT WORKS, TRY IT.

YOOOOOOO

I SAW THIS ON MY DASH THE OTHER DAY AND THOUGHT “ITS WORTH A TRY” SO I WISHED I COULD GET A 3DS

LITERALLY LIKE 4 DAYS LATER MY DAD SENT ME A PICTURE OF THE 3DS XL HE BOUGHT FOR ME WHILE I WAS AT SCHOOL

IM STILL FREAKING OUT ABOUT THIS

holy fuck, I didn’t expect this to work, I was like psh, whatever it’s just a quick reblog, but I wished my Dad would actually respond back to me AND HE FUCKING DID A FEW DAYS LATER, I GOT A FUCKING TEXT FROM MY DAD TODAY WHO HASN’T SPOKEN OR RESPONDED TO ME IN MONTHS HOLY FUCK WHAT IS THIS MAGIC IT WORKS. 

I WANTED TO SEE MY BOYFRIEND AND I DIDN’T THINK I’D GET DAYS OFF BUT THIS WEEKEND I’M HEADING UP THERE??? THIS IS CRAZY SHIT 

SO LIKE I JOKINGLY WISHED FOR MY OWN LEN KAGAMINE AND THEN LIKE A WEEK LATER I GOT A LEN NENDOROID??? H ELP

WTF OKAY SO THIS SHOT ACTUALLY WORKS BECAUSE WHEN I WISHED, I HAD WISHED MY CRUSH WOULD LIKE ME BACK AND GUESS WHAT? I HAVE A BOYFRIEND NOW. WHAT THE HELLLLL?????

ok I’ve said this before but IM DOING IT AGAIN THE FIRST TIME I SAW THIS, MY WISH DID COME TRUE SO I REBLOGED AGAIN AND SAID IT IN THE TAGS BUT THEN I WISHED FOR SMTH ELSE AND IT LITERALLY LITERALLY HAPPENED LIKE A COUPLE DAYS LATER WHAT THE HELL SO NOW IM WRITING THIS HERE FOR YOU BC I DONT BELIEVE IN THIS CRAP BUT STILL IT’S AN AWFULLY BIG COINCIDENCE

OKAY I SWEAR TO GOD THIS THING WORKS YOU HAVE TO PATIENT BC I WISHED THAT I COULD MOVE AWAY FROM MY SHITTY TOWN TO A WARM PLACE AND GUESS WHAT THIS JULY IM MOVING TO NORTH CAROLINA OKAY GUYS IM NOT MAKING THIS UP I AM SO CONFUSED ACTUALLY THIS IS GREAT BYE

this does work… no joke

(via cm0n-skinny-l0ve)

“You worship my body like you do not know the way your touch baptizes me.
While the others are singing hymns, I’ll hold you like a rosary.”

—   Sext (If your hands are gods, then I’m a polytheist)

(Source: spokeninkwells)

  1. You are stronger than you realise.
  2. You are crueller than you realise.
  3. The smallest words will break your heart.
  4. You will change. You’re not the same person you were three years ago. You’re not even the same person you were three minutes ago and that’s okay. Especially if you don’t like the person you were three minutes ago.
  5. People come and go. Some are cigarette breaks, others are forest fires.
  6. You won’t like your name until you hear someone say it in their sleep.
  7. You’ll forget your email password but ten years from now you’ll still remember the number of steps up to his flat.
  8. You don’t have to open the curtains if you don’t want to.
  9. Never stop yourself texting someone. If you love them at 4 a.m., tell them. If you still love them at 9.30 a.m., tell them again.
  10. Make sure you have a safe place. Whether it’s the kitchen floor or the Travel section of a bookshop, just make sure you have a safe place.
  11. You will be scared of all kinds of things, of spiders and clowns and eating alone, but your biggest fear will be that people will see you the way you see yourself.
  12. Sometimes, looking at someone will be like looking into the sun. Sometimes someone will look at you like you are the sun. Wait for it.
  13. You will learn how to sleep alone, how to avoid the cold corners but still fill a bed.
  14. Always be friends with the broken people. They know how to survive.
  15. You can love someone and hate them, all at once. You can miss them so much you ache but still ignore your phone when they call.
  16. You are good at something, whether it’s making someone laugh or remembering their birthday. Don’t ever let anyone tell you that these things don’t matter.
  17. You will always be hungry for love. Always. Even when someone is asleep next to you you’ll envy the pillow touching their cheek and the sheet hiding their skin.
  18. Loneliness is nothing to do with how many people are around you but how many of them understand you.
  19. People say I love you all the time. Even when they say, ‘Why didn’t you call me back?’ or ‘He’s an asshole.’ Make sure you’re listening.
  20. You will be okay.
  21. You will be okay.

—   21 things my father never told me  (via ckings)

(Source: ohthativy, via justanotherforgottenpoet)

“Is it strange to realize that these days will be our stories? Is it cliche? These will be our stories and our parents have stories like these, but they don’t tell them to us. And maybe our parents don’t even tell each other because maybe they don’t remember days like these or maybe they never thought they were all that important. They are though. The summer days and the bonfires and the love for so many people and so many things. The standing on the edge of so much and being so ready to jump, but so, so afraid. You will never tell your children about that feeling on these days because you won’t be able to. You won’t remember it when you wake up tomorrow, let alone decades from now. Even if you write it down, you can’t quite capture it. It is strange to realize that today is your story. It is cliche. So go ahead, live your story and then let it curl up inside you and stay forever or bleed out of you when it is ready.”

—   "Your Story" by Claire Luisa (via claireluisa)

(Source: claireluisa, via claireluisa)

“If a poem hasn’t ripped apart your soul; you haven’t experienced poetry.”

—   Edgar Allan Poe (via seven-minds)

(Source: letteratura-litterature, via anothervoice7secrets7)

“Reality doesn’t impress me. I only believe in intoxication, in ecstasy, and when ordinary life shackles me, I escape, one way or another. No more walls.”

—   Anaïs Nin, Incest: From a Journal of Love (via feellng)

(via mermaidsbite)

“1) When your trainee fails, repeatedly let them know how disappointed you are with them. That you expected so much more from them and how much they have let you down by not being better than they are.
2) Conversely, when your trainee succeeds, allow your jealousy to get the better of you and minimize their achievement with disinterest, disdain and ridicule.
3) Alternate steps one and two at maddening intervals. It is important for your trainee to learn that when they fail, they fail but, also, when they succeed, they fail as well.
4) Keep your trainee on edge. Surprise them with a hysteric meltdown at the most insignificant detail or by being absurdly jaunty and friendly when they have made a large and obvious mistake.
5) Teach your trainee that the easiest way to win your love, attention and affection is by screwing up as spectacularly as possible.
6) Make sure to infuse your trainee with guilt and shame over the fact that they do not feel safe or comfortable in your presence. The goal, of course, is for the trainee to equate looking after their own needs and safety with selfishness.
7) If your trainee creates something beautiful, imaginative or brilliant, destroy it. Preferably, right in front of them so they can see it.
8) Make sure your trainee understands that their feelings, whatever they may be, are a nuisance and a burden to you. Make them understand that normal people just don’t feel those types of things and that if they cared at all, they would not feel them either.
9) Make sure your trainee knows that you are brittle and delicate and that your happiness and well being is based entirely on their behavior. Just make sure to never let them know exactly which behaviors will keep you smiling and which will send you off on a tirade.
10) Be patient. It may take many, many years to reap the benefits of your training. Some stubborn individuals can struggle far into adulthood before their training ultimately succeeds. If you follow steps 1-10 religiously, however, chances are extremely good that you will achieve the desired result.”

—   

Max Mundan, How to Train a Suicide in Ten Easy Steps

© David Rutter 2014

Follow me on twitter @dmr226

(via maxmundan)

“Your silence is
More deafening than
I could have ever imagined.”

—   (via theglycoprotein)

“My knuckles are bruised
And when people ask me what happened
I make up an excuse.
Because I am too ashamed to admit
That I didn’t know what else to do
When I found out you were gone.”

—   Bruised Knuckles (Jaymee)

(via poetry-mania)

“we draw lines in the sand and then we cross them.
your skin is all ink. poetry and bite marks. temporary tattoos, stolen glances, hickeys on your thighs.
don’t worry. it all fades eventually.
we sit on opposite sides of the world. we sit. we freeze. we freeze and we freeze and we kiss until we are ablaze.
beneath my fingers, i can feel your heart beating. i can feel your heart stopping. my skin is icy july and burning december nights and my mouth is bruised from yours and loving and dying are all the same, i think.
when you are young, you love.
when you are young, that love burns out like a dying sun.
when you are young, you turn your heart over to the stars.
she still lingers on my lips. i do not want her to stay there. i want every last morsel to slip between my teeth. chew. swallow.
this is the last supper. somewhere in this room, there is a judas. she will kiss me and i will think she is a messiah. sometimes we forget the difference.
sometimes it’s all the same thing.”

—   how loving her feels. (via poppyflowerpoetry)

“Do not tell me it is beautiful that I was once broken.
If anything, say it is beautiful that I am healing.”

—   Romanticizing gets you nowhere. (via poppyflowerpoetry)

1. You will spend most of your childhood dreaming about how badly you want to be a teenager. You will think that being sixteen is the best age you can be, that you’re almost free, that you will have nights full of sneaking out, partying, having fun. You will think high school will be like the movies, you’ll have two best friends that are more like siblings and amazing things will happen. When it doesn’t. So enjoy your childhood, enjoy every ounce of excitement on Christmas Eve, enjoy dressing up on Halloween, enjoy your mama always being there to kiss you when you fall. Enjoy life without worries. I wish I had, because it goes by too fast.

2. One day you will meet a boy, who says all the right things, tell you how beautiful you are, tells you that he can’t live without you. You’ll be fourteen, untouched, unloved, and you will believe it. You will think just because he touches your skin once will mean he will stay forever, when he’s just staying long enough to get in your bed. Don’t let him ruin you.

3. He will leave. He will leave and you will be fine without him. You think it’s the end of the world, you think you’re never going to love again. But you’re wrong sweetie, the world will go on turning, and life will go on living. You will soon stop crying, and your heart will stop aching. Before you know it the boy you couldn’t live without, will be the boy you can’t stand to see or hear about.

4. The first time you try alcohol, it probably won’t be because you really want to. It will be pushed in your face and finally you will take a sip and want to spit it out. You’ll realize this stuff isn’t that good at all, people just drink to forget the shit in life, to pretend they are the shit.

5. The person who’s your best friend now probably won’t be next year. People change like the season’s and most the time they become cold like a winter’s day. You will be back stabbed, you will be lied to, you will be hurt. You will lose the one person who helped you through a lot, but you will learn to that trust is sometimes made to be broken. The one who use to look at you and smile, will look right through you like you’re someone they’ve never met.


6. High School isn’t forever, even though a day there seems like it is. It’s going to go by fast, one day you’ll walk in a freshman, and walk out graduated. It will fill you up with stress, anxiety, and make you feel like you’re not good enough. There will be days you feel like you’ll never finish a book report, and nights you’ll stay up till 1 a.m. studying. Once you’re a senior it really starts to hit you, after this year you’re done. Real life will smack you in the face, and most the time we aren’t prepared for it. But it will be okay. You will be okay.

—   i.c. // Things I’ve Learned Being a Teenager Part 1 (via delicatepoetry)